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First Touch - Laurelin Paige

First Touch
von Laurelin Paige

Bewertet mit 3 Sternen

"The problem with men who are actually a threat is that you don't ever find out how unsafe they are until it's too late."

First Touch opens up to actress and TV sitcom star Emily Wayborn setting out to find former party friend after receiving a coded phone message. In their wild days they had shared men, sugar daddies and more. She masterminds an encounter with the man she suspects is behind her friend’s disappearance, heir and hotelier with rumored mafia ties, Reeve Sallis.

The premise for the novel is very intriguing, though. Emily's friend Amber leaves a voice mail and uses a safe word they both agreed on to indicate when either of them was in trouble. Emily then begins her search for Amber. She meets Reeve, Amber's last boyfriend, who happens to be a very rich, powerful asshole with questionable connection to Greek mafia.

Reeve, he starts out as a huge douche and he stays a huge douche to the end. There are certain things indicating that he has deep feelings for Emily but he is so mysterious that you really have no idea what he is thinking or what he is planning. I had my problems with the chemistry between Emily and Reeve. They're quickly fade away because too many secrets. There is no trust between them, yet. My unbelievable problem is about the mafia's connection; from mystery to suspense then crime it felt a bit forced. The mafia things was repeated over and over without any development. I mean, this book is supposed to be serious not just kinky sex with criminal activity, right? The plot was weak and distracting. Emily became weak and boring. Reeve had nothing to wow me with beside his kinky sex and money.

There are a bunch of disturbing situations in this book, involving BDSM. Colored me red. I was angry, frustrated, and disgusted. Yet I couldn't bring myself to waste my time with judging the characters and instead chose to remain indifferent to their depraving ways. I've never seen characters as corrupted and un-sugarcoated as theses ones, believe me, which is something I appreciated but I didn't have to like it. Everything that was said and done in this book should have appalled me into running away, but somehow every time I found myself wanting to put it down, the desire for knowledge overpowered my good senses. I went too deep, too far. Oh, the fucking abuse and the sex and the glorification, oh my gawd, spare me now. My eyes and brains are done. I've sedated my curiosity and although the ending gave me one hell of a cliffhanger but a rather predictable one if you ask me.

I had to keep picking this up and putting this down and walking away and taking deep breaths because this was affecting me to a point that made me feel wildly uncomfortable and completely exposed. Total mindfuck.